today makes 6 weeks out and i am feeling great! i am feeling great mostly because of all of the accomplishments that i have made in the past 6 weeks. i don't want to make this journey seem like it is all roses because it is not. i still have days when i feel like progress is slow or i fantasize about food...that's right fantasize about food, but i get through it. i do find that i miss food and although i have found my new thing-exercise-there is really no replacement. i am happy that i am finding pleasure in exercise and for the first time in my life it doesn't feel like a chore. it feels like something natural...it's like brushing your teeth in the morning...and for this feeling i am thankful...

the hubby and i went out to eat at real restaurant last night for the first time post-op. i must say that i was very nervous when what seemed like a platter of food was placed in front of me. we declined the sweet fresh buttery rolls that are a prelude to the main course and ordered water, which we never were able to drink...we asked for to go boxes at the beginning of our meals and put 3/4 of the food in the boxes before we began eating and shared what was left on our plates. i must say we were both truly disappointed with our meals and have vowed not to eat out again until we are much closer to our goal weights...it was a total wast of money...btw i ordered teriyaki chicken breast, veggie skewers, and a sweet potato...he ordered shrimp skewers, broccoli, and a sweet potato...

we still have difficulty trying to rearrange our lives around food because this was our life...we really need to find some new activities...as we can't work out all of the time!!!

i am going in for my first fill on friday and really don't feel like i need one, but i'm going to take it! i am not experiencing any major hunger between meals and i am consistently losing weight albeit slowly. my fill will be done under fluro so tomorrow i'll be paying my piercer a visit again to get all the metal removed from my head and then all put back in after the fill on friday:/

so my weight today is 215. my goal is to be under 200 by sometime in June...doable...right? i would love to be at my goal by my birthday which is the end of September, but i don't want to set this in stone because it seems kinda grand...

the med center where we had our surgery offers a wls support group twice a month and we attended for the first time tonight...as bandsters we were definitely the minority (there were only three of us), but we were welcomed with open arms...the struggles and psychological pieces of this journey appear to be the same...i found comfort in this meeting and plan to go again...it was like lapbandtalk.com live! it was wonderful meeting a veteran bandster in real life:) until next time...

in weight loss and beyond...