well i went to work out tonight - my step class.

i always weigh more in the evening than in the morning ... always ... always... why the hell did i step on the scale this evening?

dammit! 4 fucking pounds .. .up - yeah up.

hopefully it is just my 'evening weight' cause if i really gained dammit! **sigh**

i've had absolutely no motivation whatsoever. i was on the treadmill for 30 mins yesterday. after 8 minutes i wanted OFF ...

tonight in the step class - she worked my ass off ... i wanted to leave, almost did.

i know it is a good thing that i didnt leave, but i dont know what is wrong with me ... i wanted to SO bad :phanvan

is there even a point to this post - nope. just the fact that i am totally sucking right now and i FEEL fat. how ridiculous is that??? i'm "smaller" than i have been in years and i feel fat..

grrrrrrr

and i am really grouchy - i totally yelled at Rick (DH) tonight for really no reason... **sigh**

peace out.

Poor baby I understand. We all go through that. Just look at your pics know where you came from and know where you are going.

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Girl :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: look at what you have done!!! You were 400 pounds, you will never again in your left have to say you weigh 400 pounds. You lowest weight was I think 358 and now you are in the 360's but healthier. You have new energy, you have a new drive. Come on it is too early to stop now. It sounds llike you need to take a new pic. Have you taken your measurements yet? If not, do it!

How much do you weigh....say it loud....say it proud....