I have never done a blog so bare with me. I am 33 years old mother of two. My daughter is 13 and has a terminal heart condition my son is 2 and has respiratory issues. Needless to say I'm a very busy person. My sister had the sleeve a year ago and she became a total snob. My goal is to keep this from her and to not become a snob. I have yoyoed with my weight my whole life but once I hit my late 20's I have not been able to get it off at all. Beyond terrified to have the lap band but I know health wise (physical and mental) I can't keep this going. Most of my fear is emotional (emotional eater ) but I also know I'm doing it alone and it's a life long change. Guess I'm just scared for the sake of change. I know that sounds stupid but I'm not a huge fan of change and what if it fails or doesn't work right??? I've known people that haven't lost weight or only thirty pounds I need 100 off for good I'd like 50 at least by my one year mark. I'm planning to have another baby next year and need at least that to not be so hard. My pregnancy with my son was very difficult due to weight and age. I love to excersise but have gotten so miserable in the weight that I can't seem to get up and just do it no matter how much I want to. I need the help once I get the jump start and begin feeling better I know I'll take off and be able to feel well enough to keep up the excersise and healthy eating habits. Sorry like I said I'm new to blogging and scared to take this journey but ready and thrilled at the same time.