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Need Help 3Rd Fill, 3 Months Post-Op And Struggling

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background.I started my journey november 30th 2011 weighing in at 250 lbs. three months later i weigh 234 lbs. I have had two fills (my next one is tomorrow and i'm nervous) bringing me to 2cc in my 14cc band. my doctor fills 1cc at a time. that's it (no negotiation on that one)! I AM EXERCISING AND I AM TRACKING MY FOOD (but i have trouble stopping when i've cross my cal limit)

 

I am feeling a little ashamed, defeated and nervous about going in for my 3rd fill tomorrow. I have not lost a lb. since my last fill a month ago. I am ashamed that I haven't done a better job with my diet. I don't want my doctor to think that I don't care or that I'm just another failure patient that can't get their act together. Like a lot of other bandsters out there I struggle with portion control, carb control, and especially snacking. I am an emotional eater and deal with almost every emotion or mood with food. Yes, there are times when I do well and say no to my urges, but more often than not I give in. As a result, I'm not losing as fast as I would like. Obviously I have some deep food issues or I wouldn't have gotten fat or needed surgery to begin with, right?

 

Today I took the time to go over the materials (diet recommendations) that were giving to me before my surgery to help get me back on track. I am definately not following the portions that were recommended to me all the time (I admit my shortcomings), but I'm just not full after 3oz. of food. So far my band has not helped me 100% of the time with portion control. I can still eat too much (although way less than I was eating before surgery). Sometimes I just fee like the band and I aren't working well together yet. And I felt really frustrated while reading the diet recommendations again. for example NO SNACKING. If I could eliminate snacking altogether myself I wouldn't need the band!!! I thought the band would help with hunger more and give me a full feeling, right? I dunno.THIS IS BAND HELL. I CAN'T SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL YET HELP!

 

Perhaps I'm disillusioned when it comes to what the band can do for me. Or maybe I'm just in bandster hell and the band isn't working at full compacity yet. I dunno. I just had to get all these feeling off my chest. Sometimes I think I will definately fail, that I am a failure and then I give up and eat. or I think I will fail anyways so I sabotage myself with food. (maybe deep down I'm so used to fail I will myself to fail) How do I get rid of these negative thoughts????? Has anyone ever felt this way in their journey????

 

Thank you for taking the time to give me some insights into how you made your journey a sucess

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I hear where you are coming from. But you barely have anything in your band. Crazy he only gives 1cc at a time. I have had numerous fills and 2 sslight unfills. JUst had a fill yesterday. I still struggle with hunger too. Was hoping with surgery it would ahve helped sooner than this! I am hoping this fill is the charm. I am doing the 5day pouch test. Checkout the website.... www.5daypouchtest.com I have a few friends who had great success and jump started their weightloss again. Hang in there, it will get better!

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i dont agree with doctors that have a certain amout that they put in EVERYONE's band. 1 cc every couple of months might take forever to get to restriction if you are a person who needs like 7-8cc's. having the lap band is a daily routine of trying everyday. yes sometimes you may get comfortable and feel you have everything down pat, then you band starts trippn! ugh! i have been banded 9 months and my surgeon does fills when you request them, now the first fill he says he's very conservative with cuz you never know how a persons body will react, but after that he is more aggresive. between my 4th fill 2 unfills and 5th fill i was able to figure out exactly what i needed in my band. and my doc listened to me. now i got sick and my band tighted up, so i'm goin for another slight unfill, but i said all that to say this...dont beat yourself up...the band isnt a quick fix. i started at a size 18/20 and now am in 12/14 and to me that took forever, but when i look back...never in my life have i been able to loose weight like this. so be patient with yourself and your band. i think the first year you are still getting adjusted to it. hope this helps some, feel free to PM me.

jennifer

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Hang in there! I too had a big shocker with the band I have been 202 for the past couple weeks and the scale wont move. I am very obsessed with the scale as well, getting on it multiple times a day and its killing me. I decided today i was going to put the scale away for two weeks and then check back at the beginning of Aoril when im due for my third fill. The band requires alot of work, it takes alot out of you, both physically and emtionally. We are here to support each other... One way to look it is that you are not gaining so that a good thing!!!!!!!!

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