The day is almost here. I am excited and yes a little scared about going under the scalpel. So far I have been on the pre-op diet full liquids for 9 days and done surprisingly well considering I didn't even think I would make it this far without real food. Surgery in a day and a half. Then it is onto five days of clear liquids, back to two weeks of full liquids. Then a week of blended foods, a week of soft foods and by March real food. Today I was down 18.5 pre-surgery. My doctor wants me to weigh 167 which is 63 pounds away. I have asthma, sleep apnea and degenerative disc disease. I am hoping that these things will get better. I didn't excercise as much I would have liked, but I am prone to injury and I was trying to avoid getting hurt before surgery. I want to enjoy excercise and take dance classes again, but I don't want to be a gym rat or an obsessive fitness nut. So many people I know who are trying to lose weight go on these excercise binges for months, talk about what they have done constantly and in the process lose any personality they ever had. And some quit. I most of all hate the lecturers and the Zumba nuts. Sorry if you like Zumba!

I just want to do what I have to do and then move onto other things. I don't talk too much about my weight at work or about the surgery. I figure if people ask me about my weight loss or compliment me. I will just say thank you and move onto other topics. I guess this is because I am afraid of failure,

We shall see.