None of these is silly! You are right with a lot of us who are going through this! A lot of those same things are what I worry about. I am afraid of judgement any way. Be it fat or thin. People are judgemental and it would suck to be them. This site is the best place to go for support! I think we understand each other most of the times.Keep up the good work and just know that what you are feeling is COMPLETELY normal!

Never think that something you feel is irrational or insignificant. I have thought many of the same things that you have. My main fear, after having surgery, was that I would gain weight back. You know what? I did - put on 10 lbs after an unfill at Christmas 2010. It was like getting the first scratch or dent in your brand new car - you freak out for a minute and then think "Whew, glad that first one is over". I have hit the reset button and started doing the things I did when I was first banded - exercising and watching my liquid/mushy calories. The weight is coming back off.

A year from now, when you read back over your fears, you won't think they are silly - but you won't be as afraid of them. :-)

Everyone feels these fears but you just have to decide if you think it will all be worth it...I admire you for knowing yourself and putting them down here!

These are normal fears. Any type of surgery is scary. You are reacting very normal. I have the same fears, if we didn't, then I would worry

I agree with everyone here. It is not surprising that we all have many of the same fears. I hang on to this verse for dear life:

Phillipians 4-6

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

Worry is unhealthy--concern is healthy..........

Be concerned sure, and study and investigate the options....but don't let fear hold you back......

Here's a good old saying: Worring is like a rocking chair, you can do it as much as you want, but it won't get you anywhere! Good luck and stay positive! YOU CAN DO IT!! I have just started my journey as well...the head games you play with yourself will always be there I think - it's just how you manage through them that counts.

Thanks everybody for the encouragement. I still know that this is the right decision for me, and I'm continuing on no matter how fearful I may be. Honestly I have more to fear if I don't do this than what I have written here.

@Godsgirl - that is one of my favorite verses!

After being banded for 3+ years and now going through a rebanding surgery I can tell you that many of your concerns are very valid. So many people and things happen that are beyond your control but all you can do is take it all in and use the information to help yourself or completely throw some of it out and move on. I was surprised to find that the people who have always been thinner than me were worried that I would somehow be thinner than them and it bothered them - That's there problem not ours. THe ups and downs of the weight will happen and you will work through it. Your Fibro will get better and more manageble. Breast size doesn't really go down but back size does. Slippage and rebanding happens to some but it is easily dealt with and you move on. Worries and concerns are part of being an intelligent person and you seem very intelligent and thoughtful about things so you have to address your concerns and feel as comfortable about things as you can. I hope this is helpful and not hurtful. You can always message me if you want to talk. Good luck I'm sure you'll do great and just take one obsticle at a time. Lisa

I am sure we have the same concerns going in. However: going back to my old way got me into BIGGER trouble than thoughtfully advancing toward the tool we need. I am almost 3 years ahead of you. Looking back is like a mirror... however now the ME looking back is strong and more healthy than I even imagined I could be. There was NO hope in where I came from. Look at my album and see how life has been gifted to me. I was 57 and felt 90. Now I am 60 and feel 30. Praying for you to have "peace like a river" going forward!