Today is January 5th. My height is 5'6" and I weighed in today at 217 lbs. I believe my BMI is around 35 right now. Honestly, I'm glad that LapBand is my only option. I believe that the LapBand can give me the tool I need to finally beat the fat.

My eating habits have gotten so bad that I hide the amount of foods I eat from my husband (who is also my best friend). He and I have different sleep schedules. Because he goes to bed before me I'm free to make grilled cheese sandwiches in the middle of the night and hide the evidence. My husband is a great man who, honestly, wouldn't deny me a grilled cheese....but I know my ever growing waistline is starting to bother him.

My husband tries to get me to the gym. But my asthma affects the amount I can do on the elliptical machine and my knees hurt when I ride on the stationary bike. The worst is feeling so fat next to everyone else who seems to zip through a 90 minute cardio routine without a problem.

In order to receive the lapband surgery at Brook Army Medical Center's Bariatric Clinic I must jump through these hoops:

1 - informational meeting (done)

2 - 3 hour in depth informational meeting (done)

3 - 2 nutritionist meetings in December (done)

4 - 2 nutritionist meeting in January (1 done)

5 - 2 nutritionist meetings in February

6 - Psychiatrist meeting

7 - Xray of upper GI Tract

8 - Laboratory Blood Work

9 - Sleep Study

Many of these appointments have already been scheduled.

I hope to be banded in early March.

Please keep you fingers crossed for me.

I am tired of the ups and downs of weight loss. I am ready for something that will help me to change my life permanently.