Well, closing out post op day #4 and doing really well. Haven't needed to take the pain meds much at all; no nausea or vomiting at all, passing gas without problem and today I had first bowel movement -- so all in all I feel so fortunate to be recuperating so well.

I have so much to be thanful for - a wonderful husband and 3 incredible children; a successful career and a comfortable lifestyle. I have had it all for so long and yet ....I was eating myself to death. Why? I have spent years trying to understand why and have yet to find the answer but I did finally reach the point of clarity where I saw that the reason is not as important if y desire to overcome it is strong enough. And that desire has become overwhelmingly strong

This surgery is giving me the opportunity to put that last puzzle piece in place -- the healthy me piece!! I have a long road to go but I am confident and will work to be patient with myself. Some back ground:

In March 2011 my orthopedist said I needed a Total Knee Replacement but he would not perform the surgery at my weight (298-300lbs). He asked me if I ever considered weight loss surgery and I was shocked...I assumed reputable docs would consider weigth loss surgery drastic and dangerous (I knew NOTHING about it yet had a stereotypical view of it). I left the office and we started researching. I say "we" because my husband was in same boat I was in except for the knee issues - but he had many other medical issues to warrant it.

In April 2011 we went to the 1st mandatory Info Session with the surgeon in my area and that began our ride. For the next 7 months we took every step we were supposed to and secured the approvals.

Nov 7, 2011 - my husband had his lapband placement

Dec 5 2011 - I had my lapband placement

We are both so excited. This has become something that has bonded us in a way I never would have imagined possible. I can't wait to see our successes -- to set the stage for us to be around to enjoy our lives together -- to watch our kids get married and have children, to travel, to be active and enjoying life to the fullest.

To date hubby has lost over 30 lbs and I am down a total of 18 using my highest weight of 300 from this summer. I know there will be ups and downs as we progress and that is why I am on this site....I have been reading entries for some time now and it gave me so much support just to read of the successes (and struggles) of others and to see the support everyone has to offer each other.

I feel like this is the missing puzzle piece I have been searching for!

Kath