Pre-opping, scared or not to be scared?
Keeping my cool is not what I am or have been known for. Having Pcos, a difficult childhood and addictions to food, nicotine and caffiene are not excuses to behave badly, but they certainly do not help you stay on an even keel!
I am sitting here getting ready to go to work for the day... the procrastinator in me is giving the rest of me a big fat I told you so talking to right now. You see I have not only managed to wait until I was 347lbs and 33 years old to decide that I want to be a mother, I have also waited until 3 weeks before surgery to quit smoking, give a liquid diet a try and just for kicks increase my workout routine! What kind of sadistic fool am I???
Work will be a nice distraction today, I care for Seniors in a continuing care facility. It is actually the only time I get away from my big brain thinking about everything too hard! I love the way caring for others makes me feel. Today as I down numer 2 of 3 protien based drinks I will have to face today, I am can't help but remind myself ...... why I am doing this. I will face the day and not smoke ( is it possible to not smoke while driving??? guess I will find out!) I will keep my cool because I am practicing a new me, one that cares about me and my future. I should just go ahead and apologize to all of you right now.... there will be a lot of blog entries in the next 3 weeks. With out Food and Cigarettes, My fingers will be looking for something to do.......
5 Comments
Recommended Comments
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!
Register a new accountSign in
Already have an account? Sign in here.
Sign In Now