Today was my first day of my 3 week liquid diet... I ordered the protein from Bariatric Advantage.. I was so ready for it.. All this week all I did was eat.. I topped off last night with Homerun Inn pizza and I left the restaurant feeling so sick... When I got up this morning I knew I was ready for my day when I got on the scale and it read 280.4.. I have never weighted that in my life... I had a seminar today so it was easy to not think about food. At lunchtime, I left and went to the store to get stuff for my journey. Gum- sugar-free candy, vitamins, etc...

I had a doctor's appt also. We went over my surgery which is scheduled for Oct' 6th. I weighed in at his office at 284.. Ugh... I told him that I was ready for the next three weeks and the weeks after surgery with the liquid diet. He told me if I got hungry, every other day I could have a Zone protein bar.. I was so excited. I can also drink my coffee, which would have been so hard to give up... Decaf does not do anything for me.. I do not want the non-caf headaches. He explained to me what to expect the surgery date the the weeks afterwards.. I figured today is Sept' 15 th and I should be able to eat by my first fill appt on Nov' 15th..

I just need to remember how I feel today extremely heavy. Getting on the scale and seeing 280 was overwhelming.. I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Nothing fits me.. Nothing looks good on me.. I hate the way I look.. It has been months since I actually looked in the mirror and felt good about the way I looked. I'm so ready for this surgery.

I shall see what tomorrow brings....