Mom got rid of my thin clothes! so sad
So yesterday was my birthday and I was away from the house for about 6 hours (I live with my parents). While I was away my mom gave away my "thin clothes". I haven't always been heavy and about 3 years ago, I enjoyed a large wardrobe of designer 8 and 10's. Obviously at 255 (not banded yet) I haven't worn those clothes in some time, but I always told my self "don't worry you will get back into them". They were my crutch, my reminder that I was thin and could be again. And now they're gone. When I confronted my mom she said "When you loose the weight you'll want new clothes and I'll buy them for you". She is right, I'm sure I'll want new clothes, BUT I ALSO WANTED MY OLD THIN CLOTHES! It feels weird not having thin clothes in my closet, it feels like I'm officially fat now that I don't have smaller clothes. It feels like resignation to fathood. In the end it's not about the clothes as material possessions, it's the hope they used to give me. I'm sure if I wanted I could get the clothes back, but the damage is done because the feeling of fatness is there. Sometimes I feel like this lapband thing is never gonna happen, that I'm going to be stuck this way forever with no way out. I want my old life back and I miss the life those clothes represented. HELP!
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