I feel a little jealous at all of the bandsters who have had insurance pay for their band. Weight Loss surgery was a direct exclusion on my plan per the request of my employer. It pisses me off that they will pay to treat my diabetes, arthritis etc which is a direct result of my weight but they won't cover the surgery. The insurance world is sooooo screwed up. But I've determined that the rest of my life is worth far more than the price of a used car so I will be paying for it and deducting it on my taxes.

I have know for a while that I would not be able to have the surgery until September simply because I would not have the money in hand to do it, but I swear these two months seem like two years. I have most of my pre-op labs on 8/26/11. I'm lucky in the respect that my PCP is fantastic. She is able to do everything from the blood tests, pre-surgery clearance, EKG AND Psych eval in office. I love her! The only thing she can't do is the esophagram and I'll have that done at a local hospital. She has been one of my biggest supporters with regards to getting banded.

I feel like my world is on hold. Like I'm in limbo. Suspended in mid-air. Like a quarterback who is forever waiting for the snap. Like a DVD player on pause. Lets just be real honest, I'm not a person with a whole lotta patience anyway.