Now let me start by saying sleep is hard to get for me to begin with. I have a 2 year old that sleep walks and a 5 month old that still wakes up at 11pm and 4am for feedings. And so now that I've taken the 1st steps come all the what if's that are keeping we awake.

Like the.....what if this really happens for me?

1. will it work?

2. will I be able to play with my kids and not feel like I'm dying?

3. will people finally see me and not the fat?

4. will I look good in clothes again?

OH THE POSSIBILITIES......

and the questions and day dreams don't stop there.....I found myself getting nothing done yesterday at the office and then sitting in my bed last night eyes WIDE OPEN considering all the possibilities. I promised myself I wouldn't do that you see. Just incase my insurance denies me...but I can't help it....what this would do for me and what it has done for so many has me sitting on the edge of my seat.....like waiting for the part you know is coming as the music gets louder and louder ......

So I ask...what is sleep? I am not sure I will get any for a minute or two.... Let's just hope it's worth it.