so i had my 2 week post op. i havent actually SEEN my surgeon since my two-week pre-op.. which was.. may 3rd. i went to him based on a recommendation and extensive research. but for all i know the anesthesiologist did the actual surgery. apparently i'll see him next week, thursday the 9th for my first fill. i don't like that he has been so... invisible. like he's the great and powerful oz. whatever. i'd rather have him be aloof with a great record than my best buddy but a complete f**k up. because it's obviously one or the other in this wold.

tho i'm feeling good. i even did a walk yesterday, which is huge for me. it took me 36 minutes to make it back home from the start. i'd like to keep up with it and see how well i'm at in a couple of weeks. my calves are killing me. sad. but, yay.. a start.

getting stoned really can't be an option until late at night, after i've had dinner. i have found it to be too confusing, at least right now, nearly three weeks innit. i'm not sure if i should eat a little more lunch or if that's just the head cloud talking. i've decided it's either none more pot, or only after dinner. like a mint! ... and no snacking. that's what chewable vitamin c and water are for. see, i'm getting it down. WORKING THE PROGRAM, as it were.

getting used to the tiny over-chewed bites is a real trip. i randomly forget and take a pre-op bite. you know a giant face stuffing one where i chew 3 times and swallow. yipes. i quickly regret that. not watching tv while i eat seems to helps that. whod'a thunk. i remember as a kid eating at the table... now'a days all of that seems like such a thing of the past. even restaurants have tv's. terrible... but yes. it's difficult to not just stuff food into my face. things taste so good and i want to keep eating and keep eating. even when i feel full. i suppose those are the brain issues. the emotional core problems that the band can only help with so much. hmpf.

the scale seems to be a bit stuck, at the moment. but i suppose the transitioning from less than 400 calories a day in liquids to yummy munchables has something to do with it. i know it does. but it's still sort of a bummer.. i get this band and i'm thinking 0-60 when that's not really it at all. so many things i must keep reminding myself of.

i'm reading a lot about people logging their calories for the day. is this normal in the bandito community? maybe i should start doing that... *lightbulb*

right now i'm just enjoying some mushies. not going over-board nearly at all but then since i'm not writing things down, maybe i really dont know.

obvious answer is to go out and spend a million dollars on some cute food diary that i really will use this time. honest.

i think that's it for now. excited for this first fill. yes indeedy.