i survived 3 parties/BBQs this weekend, my intrepid band and I. I was SO good..but I'm kind of frustrated because since I went to mushies from liquids the scale has come to a screeching halt. I'm thinking about doing more liquids tomorrow...not complete liquids..but just to see if I can budge myself a bit.

This is weird..because it's so much easier than I thought..and yet it's hard at times. I've watched a lot of cheesecake, chocolate chip cookies, burgers, dogs, go in people's mouths over the last 3 days and I tried to focus on the fact that most of that stuff really looks better than it is. I'm a bit of a food snob and when I have a dessert that looks Mad-good and I taste it and it's only okay...well waht a fucking waste of calories. So I sized up the offerings and they didn't look like top shelf goodies. Im sure I didn't miss much.

My belly is flatter...this is soooo huge to me. I've felt like I looked pregnant for so long now...to lose some specifically in my belly is awesome. I'm thrilled.

I am starting to see how people can screw up on this...i was baffled at first because I had no hunger. Now it's 18 days later and i guess the swelling has completely gone down because the hunger is kicking in a little. I had to be strong tonight when i got home. I ate a cup of veggies and a couple sugar free popsicles. My fill isn't for about 3 weeks. I think the next 3 weeks are gonna be a bit tough. Then my fill..and hopefully it will get easier all over again.

I am trying to be SO freaking careful.

I'm just glad the scale is heading in the right direction for the first time in a looooong time.

thats all, folks.

BandedKitten

(Banded 5/12. highest 205, Surgery weight--197..current weight 181.