Today, Dr. S office called me and said that there was a family emergency and he wouldn't be in this week. They would call me later next week to reschedule my appt. That was really really hard for me. After all the emotional ups and downs, I was really looking forward to my first Doctor's appt. So I called a different Doc . . . Dr Jay, which a lot of people on this website use. I was shocked when they said they could see me tomorrow morning at 9:30am. My BF saw him earlier today and she was very impressed. That was really reassuring to me. I might still see the other doctor when their office calls, but we'll see what happens.

I showed my hubby the website, and he told me that he had reached his decision, that he was in with me whole heartedly and 100% - Thank GOD (I'm sure the fact that they both graduated from the same College have NOTHING to do with it - go RAIDERS) That pretty much did away with some of the emotional stuff that I was going through over the weekend. I know my attitude was incredibly lousy, but this journal really helps me to get it out of my head. I feel a lot better about things today.

Why is it that once you make a decision to do something (after researching for almost a year), you are ready NOW!!?? It would make more sense for me to wait for the surgery until after the 1st of the year (time off from work), but at the same time I'm afraid our insurance may write this out of their policy. Well, once again . . . we will see :nervous