So tonight I went to my first support group meeting. They meet once a month and it's focused on Banders. I was very happy to find a group. I felt a little shy to begin with as group things have never been my thing. I just know I will need the support and thought I would reach out to not only my internet Banders but to ones I can see.

It was nice. I guess it was smaller than usual (nice day out kept some away, i think) which was better for me. Everyone went around the room saying who they are how much they have lost and a little bit about there journey. I had to chuckle at this, it felt very strange.

When it came to one gentlemen he introduced himself and so on then said he is a "closet bander". He has told family and select friends but no coworkers. Once it got to me I told him that it was great to meet someone else who decided not to tell co workers and I asked how he was able to do it for 2 years. He told me he didn't lie about his weight loss (no carbs, smaller portions, high protein, and exercise) he just left out the last important tool of the band. I love it and now I have my new title "The Closet Bander"

There was also another person there that is going to be having the procedure done by the same Doctor as I am so that was nice to meet her. I should say that I live about 45-60 minutes away from my surgeon's office. The support group is local for me about 15-20 minutes away. She is at the beginning of per op stuff.

Well, tomorrow is the last day before surgery. I think the only thing I am really nervous about is the nausea from anesthesia. I HATE getting sick. I think I will make it through the next stage of liquids since I made it through 2 weeks without killing someone.

Well I hope I can sleep the next 2 nights. The time is almost here.

~Kris

"The key to change... is to let go of fear"