I don't work with the band the band works on me. The band screams at me when I'm hungry. The band abuses me when I'm full. The band is happy when I don't eat at all....

I don't get hungry anymore. I simply don't want to eat. Eating no longer makes me happy it only annoys me and it consumes too much time (pun intended). I have better things to do with my time. It's funny how much the band has changed me... I used to live around food. I looked forward to every meal. When I finished that meal my mouth would salivate as I dream up my next meal or dessert. Food made me happy in every way possible. I dreamed about it and I lived for it. Now I must find something new to fill the void of food.

My body has changed because of the band, however my mind remains the same. As time passes by and inches melt away I slowly begin noticing the miniscule changes my body attempts to make. I see a glimps of collarbones, a trace of the hip bones, a slight hint of wrist bones and knuckles. My body makes me marvel at every curve and flab of grotesque skin emptied of globules of fat. Priceless...

My mind is stuck in neutral. I try to keep a journal to track my measurements, weight, and appearance as I change from month to month. Yet I am still surprised to see the face that looks back at me every day in the mirror. My face has changed dramatically. When I first turned 23, I looked like a 16 year old. Now after losing 70 pounds and simply 8 months later I look my age. Which may seem like nothing to an average person, but to me it's pretty freaky. Aging 7-8 years in only one year is creapy, like something you'd see on the Twilight Zone.

My personality remains the same, through thick and thin (again pun intended). I'm a gamer chick who diggs comic books and loves reading. I'm also a closet rock star who plays a kick-ass air guitar. I have a unique and sometimes dark sense of humor and love to laugh. I enjoy not being the average girl. I love being different and I am more honest than most people will ever dare to be.

Until next time....

Angrybaby signing out.