OK, so I am not someone who blames others for pretty much anything. That may not be fair, or accurate, but my arrogance about my own control over the world in which I live kind of allows me to move forward in life. So imagine my disappointment when, after a mere 7 months on the program I had hit 100 pounds lost only to wake up after the holidays and have gone only backwards!

I was pissed!

The funny part is that I knew who to be pissed at: Me.

I know how to use this tool (the band)

The tool itself, will work.

The problem is that I have been cheating.

I skipped the holidays on a conscious move and that was a HUGE mistake. I got back into bad habits that, thanks to the band, I could not slide too far into. That being said, instead of losing my 1-2 pounds per week, I have slowly gained 11 pounds.

So the system I used is back as I come up on my one year anniversary. My weight loss is now average for the time invested and by god, I hate being average! I know the odds are against me as the second 100 pounds has got to be harder than the first, but I will be damned if my own laziness will sabotage me.

I got a fill today (9.9/14 cc band) and have two days of fluids/mushies for a kickstart. I walked two miles at lunch and plan to do three more tonight. I have a chart on my office wall to track my total exercise and plan to go back to my solid meal planning.

I write this as a public acknowledgement of my own (temporary) failure. I hope I can live up to my plan.

I am the only one who can make that happen.