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So here it is....

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I was banded in early August of 2010. The fight has been a roller coaster ride at best. I started off with some great highs, finding energy and losing 20 lbs in the first few months! I started to fall, started to fail and my busy life just always seems to get in the way. I made it through the Thanksgiving holiday without gaining (or losing) a single pound. I just had another fill on the fourth, up to 8 cc's and I am able to have a few small bites of food and am done. I can't eat chicken anymore, even the most moist of chicken, for it just won't pass and I end up throwing it up. I have become way to used to throwing up lately and I know that this is not healthy either. I moved in with my boyfriend at the beginning of November and to be honest, this is the hardest part of it all. He was going to have the Roux but because of a lost job has been unable to join me on this journey. I am a girl with no self control and having someone who was supportive in the beginning not understand that I can't eat the things I used to is very hard.

 

I bought a membership to a local rec center several months ago with plans of getting back to one of my childhood passions... swimming. The first time I went to utilize my new pass, the pool was closed to ready for the winter season. Last night I went to check the schedule for the pool for the winter, and they have closed the pool down for construction until next summer!

 

It just seems like my best efforts, although not that great, are being defeated at every turn. I am lazy. I have not gone for a walk in months and I know I need to do that. I am worried that with my complete lack of will power that I made the wrong choice of surgery. I realize that this is a slower process, but I am surrounded by people at work who have had either the band or the sleeve and roux and are all doing amazing. It is hard knowing that I am a failure at this just as I have been with everything else in my life.

 

 

I have not been able to share these feelings with anyone else. Not sure why I am choosing such a public forum to do so, but I figured I have something close to anonymity here and will not be judged.

 

more to come later I am sure. Just trying to get out some of the main frustrations that I have now.

 

Banded August 2010, 260lbs to start, only down to 231. 80 more to go...........

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it sounds like you need to get involved with the people at your job that has had the lapband done and find out what makes them so succesfull,find one of these people with a GYM membership to a gym that has a pool open in the winter and make your move,,,or you can go on the web and search for gyms with pools or hot tub and go and relax with your male friend.I think you need a vacation..some time to keep from getting so stressed out,the old saying is IF THERE IS A WILL THERE IS A WAY.

I have considered the lapband and the sleeve,I go to the docroe tomarrow and I am gonna ask plenty of questions....but I an leaning more towards the sleeve.......good luck and keep a smile..and keep your head up....God loves you and he has faith in you so have faith in your self....camille01

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I UNDERSTAND. SOME DAYS ARE JUST IMPOSSIBLE. I HAVE BEEH TRYING TO STAY ON NTRACK BUT I CAN'T GET PASS 295. I STARTED AT 311 AND JUST AM HAVING TROUBLE TOO. I GUESS WE HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GET MOVING MORE THAM WE TAKE IN. MI KNOW IT'S EASIER SAID THEM DONE. TRY ONE BIG EFFORT PER DAY UBTIL YOU FEEL MORE POSITIVE. GOOD LUCK

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Haven't been on this site for a while. I just had my second fill. I am hungry all of the time. My husband bought me "Dance 2" for the WII. It is fun, but I am laid off right now and I know if I get a job, I won't do it as much as I am now. I suffer with chronic back pain, spinal stenosis and restless leg syndrom. All of which will subside when I lose some weight. From when I started this, I have lost 18 pounds. I did not gain over the Thanksgiving or Christmas holidays and that is my possitive thing I will focus on. It is very easy to focus on the "NOT" losing any weight, but I was told by my doctor that this takes time. I have been cooking more nutritious meals, but keep forgetting that I need to eat more protein so I get and stay full. How many times can you make chicken, fish, or tuna or salmon before it gets boring? I did manage to make some very good meals for my husband and me. Some were good and some weren't. I must not forget to focus on protein first when I eat. I noticed that many people are having trouble. I too am having trouble not eating. Just today, my surgeon told me that I should be eating ONLY breakfast, lunch, and dinner. NO SNACKS, and NO EATING BETWEEN MEALS. He wants me to get use to eating only at those times and not all day long. I understand, but it is so very hard to do. After a fill, I am not to eat anything but clear liquids for 24 hours. I cheated this evening and ate 1/4 cup of macroni and cheese so I had something to fill me up. I am still hungry. I sometimes want to cry because I am so hungry, but I am going to try and think positive about this and focus on the outcome of getting smaller and feeling better. I want to be able to keep up with my grandkids. I want to be a fun Grandma. Well, to all of those who are suffering with the same thing as me, I hope the best for you and pray somehow you and I will find the will power to NOT eat all day long.

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