Hello Fellow Bandsters:

I am six weeks post-op and seemed like the six weeks have flown by so fast. I have really sailed through, until about a week ago ( around Thanksgiving ). I have not gotten my first fill yet. It is scheduled for mid December due to scheduling and location. This week I have wanted to eat alot more than I have in the previous six weeks. I find myself wanting more and more sweets which hasn't even been on my mind before this. I have no restriction due to no fill at surgery. I know when I get some restriction that will help. I have already lost 50 lbs in about 4 - 5 months. I lost 34 before surgery. I know I am doing very good, I am just so afraid of going back to old patterns of eating large amounts and feeling so defeated. I have had more energy and had a sense of my old, old self (before I became very obese). I am taking more pride in my appearence. Made a conscious decision to start wearing make up again, dressing in a nicer and more fashionable manner, and really cherishing and taking care of myself and my health. All these decisions have paid off in so many ways. I just know what a hold food and over eating has had on my life in the past and do not want to go back that direction. I had a lot of help to get to this point.....family that helped me come up with the money for surgery, and support me in so many ways. I am blessed!!