Well I'm here in Oregon, and I've only seem my Niece and two close Friends...and needless to say I think their jaws are still on the ground. The big "Gathering" is tonight, and I can't help but be a little nervous and giddy. (could be about 200 people there) I feel like a million bucks right now...and for the first time I'm welcoming compliments. So nice to hear "your a hot mama" he he he!

Just wanted to share my excitement with all of my new friends here online. Thank you all for helping ease my nerves for this trip. Its helped me embrace the looks and jaw droppings...you warned me it might happen. Life is so surreal right now. Well I'm off here in a little bit, going to face one of my demons...the house where I grew up. I feel like for the first time in my life, I can do this with no regrets of the terror that happened behind closed doors. I'm ME, and I STAND BEFORE YOU WITH NEW STRENGTH AND WISDOM TO DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE! :frown::ohmy: Although none of my family lives there anymore....I'm going to just stand there and release the anger and leave it in my past. I'm a new Christy, and no longer to to keep her "fat" in hopes that...well....no details, I'm a SURVIVOR and thats what matter now!

God Bless