Liquid Diet, Day 1

Well, it's Day 1 of my pre-op diet, and I've had a grand total of 1 cup of coffee with Splenda and a splash of skim milk, and a low-fat yogurt. Drinking Diet Coke, of course.

To be honest, I'm not terribly hungry. I do feel a bit of a gnawing pain in my stomach, so I think I need to toss back a protein shake.

The noticeable effect is in my mood. I'm wicked cranky.

Add to that the fact that I'm still having no luck on the job search, and I'm a bit of a bear, I'm afraid.

Also, for the past 2-3 days I've been nursing the beginnings of what seems like a big fibro flare. So yeah, that doesn't help things at all either.

All in all, the food thing is doable, but I'm in a black mood. We'll see how things progress tomorrow...

Liquid Diet, Day 1 - Addendum

Um, yeah, this sucks

Having consumed the sum total of 2 yogurts, a protein shake, a coffee and a glass of juice all day, I gave in to the desire to actually chew something and ate a cucumber. Since a cuke is, like, 90% water (and not sugar water, like watermelon), I decided it still counts as a liquid diet.

Meanwhile, I still had to cook for the fam, and today's menu included homemade mac and cheese with veggies in the sauce. As luck would have it, today's batch was the creamiest one yet. According to Josh and the kids, my best version ever.

Awesome. I guess I'll just smell it.

This being skinny business is no fun so far.

Liquid Diet, Day 2 - A Hard Day

Today has been a really hard day.

First of all, I'm really hungry and feeling weak. I don't do well on drastically low calories, and I feel shaky, dizzy, and just weak.

It's 7:30 pm and I've had a coffee, a protein shake, a cup of chicken broth, and half a cup of apple juice. My big treat in a little while will be a fat-free yogurt. This is sheer torture, and my body is feeling run down.

Second, I argued with my husband, and went on a cleaning rampage, frustration-induced (normally, this would have been an eating rampage.) I seriously cleaned the CRAP out of my house, which sorely needed it. DH was being a complete a-hole, so he didn't lift a finger while I was busting my balls on all fours cleaning baseboards with a toothbrush.

At one point, our brilliantly-designed (not!) WHITE kitchen floor was giving me so much trouble that I said, "Screw it!" and ran off to Target and bought a steam mop. Amazing! Why had I never bought one before? It effortlessly cleaned my disgusting, grimy floors, and did the hardwood, too! And all that in a very Earth-friendly way, with just water!

Anyway. My house is resplendent now, but I'm feeling like ass. Certainly, a full-blown cleaning jag is not the thing to do when you're half-starved and on the verge of a fibromyalgia flare!

Dumb me.

Now, I'm gonna pop a pill, eat a yogurt, and hit the sack. Josh can damn well make dinner for him and Avi, and take care of his shower and bedtime. I'm freaking done.

Eight more days of this no-eating torture. I don't know how I'll survive...

Pre-op liquid diet - day 3

Today has been better than yesterday, mood-wise. Mostly, I attribute it to not fighting with my husband, because the diet situation is still dire.

Today, I have consumed a protein shake, a cup of coffee, a yogurt, and a small bowl of sugar-free jello. I might have 1/2 cup of fat free cottage cheese for dinner, along with a sugar-free Popsicle.

Meanwhile, the guys are eating kielbasa, pepper and onion sandwiches - and they smell delicious!

On the plus side, I've lost 2.5 pounds already. However, if weight loss was parallel to hunger, I would have lost 100 pounds by now!

One more week...

Liquid Diet - Day 4

Much better today, so far. I have decided to allow myself a half a cucumber a day (nothing on it), just to let my mouth chew on something.

I'm going to get a haircut today. I'm chopping off quite a bit of it. I need a change! And, although the scale is moving in the right direction, I need some instant-gratification change.

The happy news of today is that I am now under 200lbs! The scale read 199 this morning. Woo hoo!