First and foremost, I am so incredibly grateful to everyone who commented on my last entry. I was feeling extremely low and it was really uplifting to hear that how I was feeling and what I was going through are pretty standard. I guess they can't prepare you for things like that.

I still haven't lost any more weight. I'm skipping around 117kg for some reason. My body has decided to wage some kind of resistance and it has picked 117kg as it's line in the sand. My dietitician phoned and we had a talk about it. She said that my body is recovering from the shock and that having lost 9kg was TONNES and to not worry about it too much until I get my first fill. While she was saying this in my head I was thinking 'Yes that's easy for you to say... you're not the one eating NOTHING and losing NOTHING!'

My first fill isn't until September 21st. That will be the first time I have been seen by my surgeon post-operatively. Does that seem like a long time? Some other blogs I've read have seen their surgeon every month or even more frequently. My surgeon only wants to see me every 6 weeks.

I think to kick-start everything I might try going back onto Optifast. Maybe not 3 times a day like before - mainly because that was hell - but maybe at least once. That way I know I'm having one meal a day that is nutritionally complete. And pre-op I lost 4kg/8.8lbs in one week on it. I would really like to have lost a little bit more wieght before the Law Faculty Ball which is September 16. Maybe I should just bite the bullet and do full-on Optifast - 3 replacements a day.

It could be dangerous though - Optifast is bad for relationships hahaha. The amount of complaining I do when I have it, topped off by the fact that we can't eat out anywhere or anything. Maybe I will just have to have 3 a day when I can and be realistic that it's not possible for that to be every day.

It sounds ridiculous but I didn't really want to be on some special diet. I wanted the band so I could eat normally (because to be honest, my nutrition really wasn't that bad before - I have realised since reading all of the diet and meal plans) but have restriction as to how much I could eat. My problem wasn't really that I ate the WRONG things, but that I ate too much generally. I didn't really sign up for restriction and special diets. I know that is silly. Maybe it will just help initially until I have a fill and things kick in there.