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For the first time...I'm questioning myself

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Lap2Fab

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I have been going through all of the hoops that everyone else has gone through. All along, I kept saying, " if it's meant to be, it will be." I thought maybe they wouldn't let me have the surgery because my BMI is only 35, maybe they won't let me have the surgery because of my heart, or my defibrillator, maybe they won't let me have the surgery because of my insurance. I've been surprised that they are all letting me have the surgery.

 

Now, it's 8pm the night before my surgery, and I'm starting to realize how enormous this decision is. Seven months I've never doubted for a minute that this is what I want, and now, in less than 12 hours I'll be banded...for life! I'm scared, nervous and confused.

 

I just want to lose weight and be healthy, why has it come to this? Does everyone go through this the night before their surgery? I remember earlier this year when I had to have my defibrillator replaced in a risky surgery, I honestly thought I was going to die, and I didn't. I stressed over nothing. Perhaps that is what I'm doing to myself tonight, stressing over nothing.

 

The next time I post, I'll be banded. There's no backing out now...I need to do this for me!

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I went through it too and even the day after I was banded I was questioning it because of the initial pain. I know this is the ONLY way I could start getting healthy and losing weight I have tried it on my own without a wonderful tool like the lap-band for years without any long term successl. Now that I am in my forties I have acquired all kinds of comorbitities: High blood pressure, sleep apnea, PCOS, hernias, being tired all the time, etc... It is very natural for you to get a little anxious before surgery I was getting a little panicky myself and just stopped and prayed and took deep breaths. Then a nurse came over to me and she said she had the lap-band done by the same physician last year and it will be okay. That was a sigh of relief for me because she looked great and I would have never guessed she had the surgery. She said she is now more active than ever she has three sons and is always doing something that before she couldn't do. I myself said time and time again I am standing on the sidelines of my own life and it is terrible to literally see years pass by without me being able to enjoy life to the fullest extent. I want to be the best me I can be and the healthiest me I can be and that involves using the lap-band as a tool to get control over my life. You are in my prayers and I can assure you after the gas pain and soreness you will be feeling better in a few days! Congrats on your decision.

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You'd be crazy not to doubt it honey! You're voluntarily under going major surgery. If you're like me, you're trying to figure out why you're such a failure at weight loss that you have to resort to this. Trust your instincts you've worked on this for months and months, you've likely researched every inch of the procedure. Don't push yourself if you truly don't feel ready but don't give up just because of cold feet either. Good luck!!!

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I to had the same feelings but I was more scared not to do it . I was surely killing myself with the weight that I had put on and was still putting on. I think it is normal to feel that way. I still think it was the best thing I could have done for myself. I so do not regret it at all. I will say a prayer for you. Good luck.

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I am 2 weeks post op now and today is the first day I feel happy!! It is a major shock to your system (surgery) and the first week I kept saying - I did this to myself!! -- now --- very happy and looking forward to the future for the first time in a LONG time! Can't wait to hear how you are doing!

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