Oh my goodness, have I been there! First, none of the feelings your have are "dumb"! God gave you those feelings for a reason. Explore your feelings as much as you can! I considered "what if it doesn't work for me" and replaced that thought with "it will work for me". I also replaced the "what if's" of surgery with "what if I keep living like this". I am day 3 after surgery and 19 after I started my life change, and maybe it's because it's still so new, but I am LOVING my new life! I feel wonderful (though a little sore), like I have been given a second chance to be healthy! I don't want to get wordy or preachy, just know that you are not alone. You can contact me on here, or check out my blog if you want to follow my journey. This is your decision, do it for you and nobody else. And kiss your husband for being so supportive!

I think we all had doubts before surgery . . it IS scary. I encourage you to read lots and lots of the posts on this site, I found that to be very encouraging. Everyone is so positive and you can find tips on being successful. The band is a tool - you make it work. Best wishes.