When i started this, I thought it would be a trivial matter to get diagnosed, and then treated. Oh, if only it had been that simple.

It's been a real struggle. Doctors who feel that they know best, doctors who won't test because Cushing's is too rare, doctors who won't test because they have a stick firmly wedged up their butt.

It's so hard to read about seeming everyone else's successes, to know that until I get this tumor out of my head I will never have any success losing weight. I go away from LBT, and yet I am drawn back. Perhaps it is because I keep hoping that I too will once day have success, that one day I will be a size 14, not a 24.

I wear the same clothes I wore before I was banded.

But at least I know I have answers. I must hold onto the thought that I will have success.

But it is harder still for me to know that other people are not seeking answers. That they are content to accept the band as yet another failed gimic. That they are not willing to push against the resistance that doctors put up.

Is anyone else fighting!? Or am I alone in this? Fight Turtles! Fight!

You are not alone in the fight against fat. Turtle or no turtle the fat just won't fall off. On top of that fight, you have your body fighting against you. You will be diagnosed, treated and be on the losing side. Your band is there for later usage.