I have my first consult next week, and have been nervous and excited since I made the decision to discuss it with my diabetic doctor. I just came from a mini vacation in Chicago, and felt so out of place. I was with my best girlfriend, and walking in Bloomingdales, Macy's, Nordstroms, etc....was just too much....I felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman....I felt like people judged me for even being in the store.....I touched a little black dress in a size 16, and can't wait to go back and buy it....

This is the biggest challenge of my life....my husband had an affair, and I put the blame on myself....no more. I am doing this surgery for my health and longevity. Im giving up my soda, my huge portions of food, and even with an amputation am willing to walk.....I have to do this.....:frown:

One of the most wonderful things I am looking forward to, is going shopping.....in my closet... I have sizes 14-26, and will be able to wear clothes I haven't even put on yet......can't wait.....Being a very tall girl, I also look forward to seeing what my feet really look like, and will paint my toes to match my outfit.