D... Doin' it Day is June 30th. Been a while since I was online. PC decided to have a meltdown, but glad I'm back before my operation.

I put the date back a week or so from the original 21st, to get things organised around school holidays for the girls and I.

Now have just 3 sleeps to go, and I'm not at all nervous... wonder if that's a good sign or not? lol Must say that I'm excited at the idea of the new life I will have. Wonder if that's because I'm delusional? lol

I guess I'm just too, what it will be like and just how big the adjustments will be for me... and how I will handle them? Kind of like into the unknown, and that is where I have some fears, if any.

Perhaps it the permanacy of it all, that has me wondering. The idea that this is forever is something new for me to contemplate, but I know it's what I need to keep me on the straight and narrow with my health.

Tomorrow have to get the last of the items for hospital and make some broth for when I get home the following day, after day surgery. Also, go visit the hospital and complete everything there... then home, and it's D minus 2.

Not sure what else I can do for now. I have read, and re-read information.. chatted to people, told a few who (all but one) wished me well. The other said, it was a mistake, but she would support me whatever decision I made.

My girls, have been wonderful. I know they are concerned for me having the operation, but also as I explained to them... it's no more risk than my having a stroke or heart attack at this size, and I have a great team working on me on Wednesday.

So there it is, guess I best go and get into bed. Bless you all, for helping me get this far... Dee xox