Been a while since I blogged....

This is just venting of where I am at these days...

First, since dropping a total of 61 pounds in 2.5 months the scale is frustrating the hell outta me...I am fighting the same damn 3 pounds for a week and a half now...I am so upset about this. It seems that all the work I have done is just now starting to not work. I am getting a bit depressed. The depression is leading to less exercising....and loss of motivation. I am trying really hard to keep my eating in check and so far I have but I'm losing interest in exercise. I wish I had a work out buddy or someone to talk too....

Usually I am a very positive person and one who people ask me questions and look at me as being successful so far....I don't feel it anymore. Part of the lack of exercise has come from having major dental work done the last few weeks...I am trying to get a healthier mouth and a pretty smile that years of soda ruined. So, i have dental work done, I'm in pain for 4-5 days and on pain meds, I don't exercise as much and I'm fighting 3 pounds over and over. I dont know if I need a fill or not. I'm not scheduled for my second fill til July 25th. I am feeling pretty lonely and I have no one to talk with...I don't want to call my surgeon office and tell them that I'm losing my motivation because they look at me as a success so far...I guess I don't want to let them down....

I also just got done with my menstrual cycle and I do have PMDD so maybe theres a bit of that going on as well...I'm just not feeling the groove anymore...I don't feel the excitement of having the band anymore....I don't view it as a problem, I'm just not as excited as I was...

I had major dental work on Thursday, and today I tried to not take any main meds...I made it til 6pm this evening and I took some...I also had a migraine today...my first in months. What is wrong with me...I wish I had an in person friend to talk to....I really am so lonely....

Meg:crying: