I know that it has been a long time since I posted on my blog and I apologize to those who read it. Things havent been so good with me lately. I have been feeling defeated for stupid reasons and my husband is still out of work which makes it that much more stressful.

I went to my doctor yesterday to get my 3rd fill. I got on th scale and it read 239 when I went there a month ago it read 247, the same thing it read back on 3/18. So need less to say seeing a change in numbers was refreshing and motivating. My doc also told me that my BMI is 39 and I am no longer considered morbidly obese. I cant tell you how happy that made me when I heard him say that. Now Im Obese, which those who have never had a problem with weight dont understand why I am so happy about that. Even my husband said that it was good but being obese isnt good. I told him that this is one of many milestones that I must overcome in order to get where I want to be. He understood then. My doc asked how I was eating and how i felt in between meals and I told him and he said that it sounded to him like I didnt need to have another fill done yet. He said that he sees alot of patients who lose weight and think that they can do better and get a fill then they are too tight and have to backtrack or start all over again. Thats something I dont want to happen so when he told me it was my decision I told him that I didnt want fill yet. We will see how this month goes and if I will be fine until 7/19 or if I will have to go in earlier. With the last fill I had 2 Stuck episodes where I got sick and I never thought I would get it out. But I am so happy that and proud of myself.

I need to start working out but that requires me to get out of bed earlier and head to the gym before work and lately I just cant seem to do that. I need to make myself, I really do. Its just hard working nights and not getting to bed until 2 am.

So I didnt take classes this semester but I go back in the fall and I really hope that Tony is back working. Thing have just been going wrong all over the place. My truck broke down the other day, first the waterpump went out and then that made the alternater go so I am back to driving th F-150, which I dont mind, but it has electrical problems. I just want him to be back working so we can have money to fix vehicles and not be so strapped. It would make losing weight alot easier bc I wouldnt have all the stress that I am dealing with right now.

They are doing a Biggest Loser contest here at work and the buy in is $50. I wish I could join in but I dont have 50 bucks to put in. I think I am going to see what I can do about trying to get a trainer to help me kick my butt into gear. well got to go back to work. I have my Brooks and Dunn concert on friday so that will be my reward for working so hard. :eek: