It took me a very very long time to even consider having weight loss surgery. I was so against it for so long. I felt like it was failure to not lose weight on my own. But obviously at 37... I had failed enough!!! I had to face the reality that if I hadn't lost the weight by now...I probably never would if I didn't get help!!! At the time of my consulation, my mom had been battling cancer for about 4 months. It was an up and down rollercoaster that I chose to ride ... and I rode in the FOOD CAR!! I gave myself free reign to eat whatever I wanted because I was upset!! But as times got harder...I felt worse and worse. I didn't know how long she would be sick. It could have gone on for 2 years!!! And at the rate I was gaining weight...she would have outlived me!!! I felt like I needed to do something quickly to make a turnaround so I could be the best I could be for her sake.

I work for an insurance company and came across this doctor...so I researched and saw some things I liked about him. He was soo nice!! Everyone in that office is sooo nice!! He told me weight loss surgery is NOT failure. Some people are predisposed to be overweight. I never thought of it like that. So while I was still deciding on whether or not to have surgery...I went ahead with my other appointments. I just kept moving forward.

Unfortunately my mom passed away 2 weeks after my consulation with my surgeon. That was the worst thing that could have possibly happened to me!! But I made the decision to move forward. For the first time in my life...I didn't allow my situation or circumstances to affect what I needed to do. No more excuses! My whole life had been once excuse after another. But with the Lap Band, I have the "TOOL" I needed to be successful. Do I still get upset...YES. Do I still want to eat when I get upset...YES. Can I eat anything and everything to supress the pain....NOPE!!! That's the key!!! I can no longer physically eat that much!! And it's not like...oh my god I want more and I can't have it and this sucks!!! It's like...Ok...I'm full... I'm going to stop eating now. But I am still living my life and I enjoy food!!! I have always been a "foodie"... I enjoy fresh ingredients and whole foods. And Yes I still eat dessert...but it has to be something FABULOUS!! All in all...I'm so glad I made the decision to have the surgery and I would highly recommend it to anyone!!! Take the first step and have a consultation with a surgeon!!! It just might change your life!! :cursing: