I walked out of the house this morning in a pair of light weight khaki pants... of course I was late... so I could do NOTHING about the fact that my pants were halfway down my butt as I walked to my car!! :cursing: It's a good feeling to know that my clothes don't fit because they are TOO BIG!!! Fortunately I do have some really nice stuff in smaller sizes. I've been so afraid to get rid of anything for the fear of gaining weight again. But Just when I think that will happen...I lose more weight. I'm looking forward to the summer for the first time in a very very long time!!!

It's also mother's day this Sunday...and it will be the first since my mom passed away in July. This surgery has been the best thing I could have done for myself. Even though I have bad days, I can no longer use food to avoid feeling my emotions!! That was what I was hoping would happen for me. So I have to deal with what I am feeling. I miss her so much...and sometimes I feel bad that I don't miss her enough!! I wish she could be here to see me now because she was always my biggest supporter!!! But I think if I can be proud of myself...she would be even more proud of me!! :cursing:

Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms!!