Lately, life has just been happening and I'm just trying to go with the flow...I am down a total of 43 pounds and I'm very excited about that!! My first goal was to be down to 299 by the end of June 10....I have 8 pounds to go and I think I will make that goal sooner than I thought:thumbup:

I go for my first fill in 4 days. I am kinda nervous, I don't know why....maybe because this is the first or my food intake will probably be restricted. Even though I know I need to make better choices about what goes into my body, not having a fill these last 2 weeks, I have been eating more and things that would not be in my best interest to eat. I am still losing even though I have made a few bad choices here lately. I have found that I do need more calories than what I was told because every time I have induldged, I have lost weight!! It's crazy....

I was worried that I wouldn't get a fill next week because of my weight loss....But I called my surgeons office and they said that I would get a fill regardless so that made me feel better. Right now, I feel I could go to a buffet and eat whatever I wanted ( except bread) I am really hungry and thinking and dreaming about food. I have crazy dreams about food and my band....

I am still swimming almost every day. I push myself more in the pool to go longer or use more effort. I know I need to really start walking more. I am so scared that I will have a heart attack and then that thought sends me into a panic attack...I really need to talk with my surgeon and primary doc to figure out my risk of heart attack/stroke. If they tell me the truth then maybe I can really start walking more.

Since this coming week I will be 6 weeks post op, I have the opportunity to meet with a personal trainer. That excites me and scares me. Why am I so afraid to push myself....( besides the health reasons ). I am still on my meds for cholesterol and triglycerides. I am hoping to make an appointment with reg doc to get blood work done and see if the doses can be lowered or even taken off them completely.

Life as a bandster is not a bad life by any means. I have been given a gift and even though it has had its challenges, it is so worth it.

I am learning to love myself, forgive myself and to make healthier choices. It does not happen overnight....:thumbup: But it is a journey and one that I am fortunate to be on.....well time to close, TIME FOR BREAKFAST....LOL

Loving Me daily

Meg:tt1:

I just loved your blog. Thank you.

Yes, this is the most amazing journey I have ever been on

I just love my band I did just say I LOVE MY BAND!!!! Well I do....I have made a few if not many food mistakes and have learned dearly for them.

It is also a gift I have been able to work with for the past 11 months and next month will be a year. Wow did that go by so fast. I have lost 97 pounds had an Un-fill and I am still losing inches! I have to play well with my band and it will work for me. I enjoy this new found body of mine and jump at invitations to go out to parties now. Now that I have something to wear. I could never go any place because I never had anything that fit. I have gone from a size 24 plus to a size 12P in less than a year. Hello new body and better healthy living. Best wishes imaluckydog