I had my first fill Tuesday, and though I was a bit scared, the whole ordeal was very easy and short lived.

The only pain was the lidocaine they administered while I was laying on my back. The long needle they used to add fluid was painless.

The sensation felt like a small tug when they entered the port and when they pulled the needle out. I never felt anything as they pushed the fluid in with a syringe.

I did not ask how much saline they used, but it appeared to be 2-3cc.

I had surgery on March 1st, 2010 and have maintained my weight at 375-380lbs. My weight on the day of my surgery was 381.

I feel no restriction currently, even after the first fill. I suppose it might take a couple fills before I actually get to the good place, and start losing weight. I can eat just as much as ever, though I am working hard on portion sizes. Fast food is my nemesis.

My diet could be much better, and I am finding that old habits are returning as I wait to adjust the band. I really like Mexican food, and need to get this off my menu.

It is a horrible feeling to have people close to you question your choice and not be supportive.

Not losing weight seems to fuel their opinions to point me out as a failure, even if they do not fully understand this will take time. I am really down about this right now.

I have been called selfish for having the surgery as well as lazy to not lose the weight the "right way". Part of me wants to starve myself to lose 30 pounds fast just to feel justify my choice.

I know in time I will show the people who doubt me I made a wise decision, but I am currently waiting for things to progress. I feel like I am in limbo.

I am staying active. I purchased a push mower, instead of using my riding lawnmower. Beats the gym, right?

I am also walking several times a week. I love being outdoors.

My clothes are becoming loose. I will be shopping soon for new pants. Since February 1st, I have lost about 20lbs, so I do get a few compliments at work. Feels good.

Well, thats all for now. Time to be patient and wait the next few fills out.

Have a great weekend everyone!

-Chris