Just had a fill a couple weeks ago. Since then I've lost five pounds. I finally have broken the miserable plateau I was on. I'm so excited and a lot of the depressive feelings I was having are gone. I have this skirt hanging in my closet from college. I haven't worn it in ten years. It's black and has red skulls on it. I'll probably never wear it again but I was saving it until I could fit into it again, just to know that I could wear it if I wanted to. I put it on the other day just to check my progress and was able to zip it all the way up. Instantly I was taken back 10 years and had the urge to dye my hair black and find my fishnets and buy a pair of doc martins. My best friends both have forbade me to wear it. It never ceases to amaze me how far I've come since then. My hair is long now, dark brown and I think I'm much more beautiful without all the black eyeliner. It seems like ever since Lent and Holy Week came I've been doing so much better with my own self-image. Once again I'm not seeing a fat girl in the mirror when I look in it. Also I'm taking a lot of risks in my life and that is making me feel alive again. I've started looking for ways to be positive about my job so that I'm not as upset and angry all the time. It seems to be working. When my life is going well it doesn't seem like I make as much of an effort to control my emotional eating, but when I'm happy I am more focused on making sure that I take care of myself. Anyway that's it for now. Weight this morning was 181.0 hoping to get below 180 by the end of the week.:thumbup: