Well, I am almost 3 weeks post surgery and what a ride its been already. The surgery wen well and I did experience some pain for the first 5-7 days. But by day 3 I went to the movies and started getting out of the house regularly. About 2 weeks post op, the depression came. I realized what I had done to myself and was sad at the "divorce" from food. Food was my best friend and I was letting it go...It was very hard to let go, but I made my peace with it and told it that I no longer needed that friendship in my life. It was ruining my life....

I am still a bit depressed, although not as bad. I am going to ask my psych doc to increase my antidepressant for a bit.

I am seeing a therapist to help me deal with my food issues but I do not think she is the right therapist for me. We really dont talk about food issues. We mostly talk about her....I will ask my psych doc for a therapist who deals with addiction and had experience with food addiction....since I am a food addict.

Since being banded, I have bought a adult 3 wheel bike, sketchers shape up shoes, and a Wii. I have been looking forward to using this stuff but now have come down with bronchitis and a head cold. I'm feeling crappy physically. I am down a total of 33 pounds which makes me feel good....but I want more. I want everything I have been dreaming of, and the things my morbid obesity has kept me from doing. At my post surgery appointment everyone said how good I was doing and that I have healed up properly.

Now, it is time to really start this new life...the healthy life...the active life...the life I have always dreamed of...

This will be hard, emotional, powerful, painful,wonderful, exciting, amazing, joyous, eventful and the best thing I could ever do. I'm ready....I just need to get over this cold/bronchitis...

I love myself today....

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great post Meg!!

Thats great- I am 5 days post op now and Im already feeling depressed, still wanting to eat and my band isnt full yet. Its a long journey ahead of us and from the sound of it your doing great. Love urself first everday!!!!!!! keep up the good work.

You have a great attitude. It is what you need on this journey that is for sure. I need to keep busy and Happy. Love your pink font. Best wishes on your journey. imaluckydog

I still dream of food and how great it tastes but 3 days post op and I barely can finish a bottle water and jello was a strech. I think I am suppose to be eating more, but I'm not sure.Can you have a protein shake and can someone pls tell me what ursodiol is for and how you are taking it bc it's nasty and if it won't keep me alive then do I have to ingest it.

It is to prevent gallstones, I literally choke it down with an ounce of grape juice.