Work in Progress

:mad: I been using my computer (posting, emails, etc.) from a chair for a month now. I guess I must say I am in a comfortable rocking chair thing with cushions. BUT its UPRIGHT and so am I.. lol

(Oh for those who dont know.. I always had to post from the couch, then later I got this neat lounge chair chaise (spell?) due to pain as I have some back injuries)

I bleached my hair three time in the last two months.. and to rinse it out, I leaned over the tub and rinsed it in the tub facet.

I mean I HAD to cuz I forgot my fancy disabled people shower thingie at my old place. (damn it, that was expensive!)

And it was basically easy. I mean it wasnt easy. But it was WAY WAY WAY easier. Compared to before, it was a SNAP.

I have had to do this before (use the facet) and it has left me in tears.

I have had crisis interventions over this in the past. (I have to do my hair like every couple months)

I either couldnt reach the facet it well enough to rinse thouroughly and fried my hair, absolutely could not hold my possition and had to leave the area before I was done, cried alot, needed someone to come with a picher to help me, had to get in the tub and let the bleach run all over my body and ect ect... lol, seems like alot to go through to dye my hair, but thats life ya know.. you do what you gotta do and you dont think about it.. UNTIL NOW when its so different.

I can lay on the couch for more than an hour.

This couch from goodwill..It has two reclyning chairs on the ends.

I couldnt lay on it. It was extremely uncomfortable. (the mechanics inside, undetectable to the normal sized..)

I tried and tried to get a place on this couch because Um I NEED to lay down and I need to be in my living room.

I tried until it was completely clear that in NO way could I use this couch. My family loved it.. Its a pretty cool couch for everone else.

I only had the chaise lounge chair that I could tolerate for semi long periods and it wasnt sufficient. I could only sit on the couch about an hour in its upright possition with the reclyner out. (not quite upright.. lol)

And EVERY time I regretted it (pain pain pain)

I had no where to "be" in my own living room if I was "bedridden' that day, I actually had to be in my bed.. and I dont like being isolated like that.

So... My stuff was in storage.. I just got a new place... and GUESS WHAT..

I went to lay on the couch.. and I could. AND I CAN..

I HAVE A PLACE TO BE IN MY OWN LIVING ROOM NOW! WOW

My Watch is loose.

My friend gave me the watch in christmas of 04, she got it fit for me and it fit perfectly. Now its always upside down, dangling and at least three links could be removed. I dangle it everytime I need a pick me up.

I can weigh on a normal scale and the scale at the ymca becasue I am under 350 pounds now. Nuff said.

I had my first Orgasm from a Man, that I didnt have to help one bit.

I am 35 and having my first one, unassisted. I thought it would NEVER happen. I was OBESE by age 16 and not sexually educated before that....Three kids by 19 and never did enjoy sex. and it was dead ever since because I felt so crappy about myself..

I almost never even touched myself. I felt so discusted. NO looking even.

This O happened with a good friend who has never done anything wrong to me, who I have been seeing casually for over three years and who I have become increasingly comfortable with. (26 yr old hottie too)

Last year on my 34th bday, I was able to have 7 multiple O's with him, (I did it, but it only happened cuz he was there and he was OMG AMAZING)

So.. Its a mixture of my becoming increasingly comfortable with him as well as with myself.. In fact, the whole sex thing was so much better that also made me ready and capible..

This was never due to HIs lack of skill, I know he has the skill, I have known that from our first time. But I was dead and his skills mean nothing if I am dead.

I am still in shock.. I mean you go 35 years and your mom and sister and best friends ALL know you have never had an orgasm from a man.. and that last year was my first one with a man at all (assisted) (and I date plenty, and many have tried and tried well)

AND now, its not my story anymore.. lol. (I havent even told them yet!)

Sex..Details later..MAYBE, kinda new and feeling too personal.. BUT ITS HUGE.

WORK IN PROGRESS