It's now one week after my first appointment with the doctor. The appointment was actually short, at least shorter than I imagined it would be for that much money! The doc didn't ask too much, just basic stuff about me and what to expect with the two different bands and surgery. Apparently I have the worst insurance possible so even though I'm relatively healthy, I need every clearance!

He also told me to start on the liquid diet, since my stomach is "a little hard". Whatever that means. He also said he thought the surgery could happen within 30 days, since I've done a 6 month diet with weight watchers last summer.

A month of liquid diet is crazy to me right now, but I'm trying. Since the weekend after the appointment was Easter, I decided not to go cold turkey onto the liquid diet. I eased into it, just doing breakfast, then added lunch on Monday. It's been easier each day, but I'm still having dinner. It's less than I would have eaten before, I know. So, today is day 5 for me and I'm doing fine, but I will still eat dinner. I'm giving myself until Friday to quit hard food entirely.

I'd like to keep this whole thing to myself right now, but my mom has been telling family members here and there. Gee, thanks! I'm absolutely keep my co-workers in the dark, hopefully even the HR lady won't know either. I'm not comfortable with telling them, most of them are uhm.... well.... jerks..... no nice way for me to say it right now.

Two co-workers have the same weight issues as I do and I'm using them more as my gauge for what not to do. They have that "nasty fat" attitude sometimes. And I can see when they are upset/angry that they run to fatty or sweet foods immediately. The past three days have been interesting. I think my mood is actually better, rather than up and down. I see them and I think may it is the food that controls your emotions!

I hope this journey fills me with strength, health, and a more positive life.