So.....
.....this is what they call "Bandster Hell". I have officially entered and it is definitely hell. The hunger pains are here in full force. It took about 6 days. I was good on Saturday until it hit evening. The fluids are just not enough. You don't really understand what this is like until it hits you and when it hits, its all at once and doesn't go away until the next phase!! I just want to scream and cry....actually, I have done both.
So, I am hungry. I am trying to figure out if its head hunger and I really don't think it is.
Easter was HARD yesterday (BTW: Hope all had a good holiday!). I had to drink my chicken broth and watch everyone else chow down. Hard when I am very hungry. Very emotional day.
So, i called my doctors office today to moan about my hunger pains, my emotional pains and my head pains. The woman I talked to was sooo nice and very supportive and told me all kinds of nice things to do to help keep my mind off of food. Told me to look at the big picture, about how great I am going to look and feel, etc. But, no eating until my next appointment (April 9). 4 more days. I can do it. I know she has heard it all before but i really appreciate how nice and supportive she was. This is really taking everything out of me. I have never been told not to eat! I am actually scared to cheat. I can't cheat. I have gone this far. I will only be disappointed in myself. Plus, if I cheat and everything goes down nicely, whats the reason i won't cheat again?
So, in good news, i have lost 9 pounds since surgery bringing my weight to 202. It doesn't feel like i have lost all this weight though. It could be because i am still swollen where the incisions are and my stomach is bloated. I have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow to check them out so hopefully she can tell me when to expect to feel normal again!
I am off to eat some more jello.
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