ITS MY PERIOD!! YEAH.

I got the cramps around 10pm and just now found some pink.

So... I am gonna assume its my menstral.

Now, I just feel so much better about it all.:mad:

I dont know for sure, but I have a feeling I can stick to some lower calorie eating for a few days now.

I didnt want this Journal to be about all this crap.. BUT, I guess it will be what ever it is... Go with the flow.

.............

Tonight I almost went to the coast with my daughter.. she jsut got back today, but had to go back cuz Dono forgot his wallet in her car.

I was gonna ride along. But in the end chose not to go.

I was debating whether to go, cuz I know it would be painfull and it was a quick trip, not for any certain kind of fun or activity, but I have been bored and it was something to do..

Plus I could stay at my friends house for the night and thats something to do too..

BUt my daughter said "cuz I can" to something I asked her and I acted like I didnt want her company..... Well, that was obviously me using that as a way to justify my social anxiety and sheer lazyness and fear of pain. All of which I HATE allowing to control me.

I layed on the couch and watched Southpark all night, helping Cry with her nonexistant family tree and fighting with Ambree to do her chore.

I coulda been in bed with my friend feeling all calm and relaxed knowing the ocean was nearby and feeling wonderfully small.

I have a date this weekend with Reese. I AM going, no matter what. If I find a way to weasal out, I may as well give it all up and

But I am nervous. I think its gonna last Saturday to Monday cuz his work schedule. Well, I will talk about this later.