Alrighty, time to get this thing movin. I haven't felt any restriction from my first fill so I am hoping with this next one I will start seeing some better results. So far i waver around the 10lb loss marker from my surgery just a little over a month ago. Today I have a long day drive to Abq and back so i am going to jump on my elliptical and go to a chiropratic appointment this morning. My neck has been killing me Needing to amp up the yoga too.

Something to Share

So I have been reading this book called Awakening and Healing the Rainbow Body. One morning i opened the book to the section titled INTENTION.

Intentions are conscious and subconscious. We are mostly aware of the conscious intentions ie getting the lapband or calling in a new lover to your life... However there are even Stronger intentions we put out there everyday through our subconscious. These types of intentions can bring us harsh lessons filled with much tribulation and pain. The reason for this IS our own personal feelings of unworthness and lack of self love!!! I almost cried... For me, these words hit home like a falling boulder. I see this truth played out for me over and over in my relationships, which have always left me shattered. I thought to myself, How/why do i hate my self this much. I really do love myself and believe that i am an amazing person.

Even this realization of subconscious intention is baby steps towards changing the ingrained thought patterns of self abuse. I mentioned earlier how much I LOVE yoga and how it makes me feel So good after i go to a class. Knowing how much i benifit from going to yoga class doesn't mean i go everyday or every week. I am really having to take a long hard look at my self and ask why and i not going. Is this just part of the ingrained pattern of self abuse and lack of self love?

So i am making a commitment to myself to consciously be aware of my subconscious and correct myself if i hear myself thinking negatively. Also being grateful to know that i am positively affected by going to yoga class and will make the effort to go more often for the sake of self love and repatterning my intentions.

Just to put it out there in the universe.

May i be given the strength to follow though this knowledge with action.

Being mindfull is not always the easiest thing...but so important in our journey...not just with food but in every other aspect of our life. Best of luck to you!

Hey chica! I got my fill yesterday and I can tell there is restriction even with the liquid diet I'm on today. Hopefully this will last a few weeks!

Good luck with your fill!

Your words were very powerful. The mind is amazing. The balance in life that we need is such a struggle and a constant effort!!

I'm speechless at the moment and will revist for further commentary...you are SO powerful in thought & words, you have NO idea...

Thank you all so much. I just love this blog. We are all so very powerful and give our strength to each other in different ways. Thank you for being apart of this process. May we continue to inspire and encourage each other along the way!