I'm young. I'm not sure if I can live with this band forever in me and that's been plaguing my mind all day but I looked in the mirror today and realized I can.

I entered this thinking I would be able to one day take it off and that this experience will teach me about portions and healthy eating. I've read about how many who took it off just gained the weight back. I want to be able to eat certain foods. I don't want a port to be visible.. I don't want this thing inside me forever and more importantly, if I do ever get rid of it, I don't want my weight to come back ever..

I got over my fears. I looked at myself in the mirror. Being thin tastes better than any food.

I bought a food scale and a digital weight scale. 255.8lbs at 5'5. No more! I'm determined and ready! WOOT!

Reading what you all have written. Speaking with some of you. Your comments... I'm not alone. I may be just a teen but you all feel what I feel. I've been obese my entire life. I want change. We all want change. A better future... SO HERE I COME... zooooooooooooooom~

Now if only these protein shakes came in different flavors. Bleh.

On a different note, my mom showed me this picture:

and asked if I liked the dress. I loved the dress and said just that. She said "good, because a size 8 should be arriving in about 2 weeks. When you finally loose the weight, I want you to have something to look forward to. You're so pretty now so imagine you in the dress!" I love mom and I don't think I could go through any of this without you... I can't wait to wear it.

Good Luck to you! Remember your worth it!! Moms are the best, keep strong!