Current Mood: Worried:sad:

The Lap Band thing is going well. I'm adjusting to my fill. I think I was eating too fast and a bit too much the first couple of days after the fill and that's why I got stuck a few times. On Saturday night, I tried a slice of turkey and swiss cheese rolled up and the second bite was just wrong. I couldn't get the feeling to pass. I got up and started pacing around the living room and kitchen hoping I could dislodge it. A sip of water made it worse. Finally, I started coughing up thick salive....Slime, I guess...and it eventually went down. Very unpleasant and definitely reinforcing the band as a deterrent to eating too quickly or too much. Won't do that again.

So, I'm on the right track but I can't figure out how to get everything in my life going in the same direction at the same time. If my weight is in a good place then something is bound to be wrong at work or in my family. Unfortunately, it's my family this time.

My 6.5 year old has started worrying about germs obsessively and is now washing her hands too often, refusing to touch things and even asked me if she could have her own hand sanitizer this morning. I've been noticing this behavior over the last couple of weeks - she would tell me she touched her lip and then the arm of the chair or somethign similar - and was hoping it was a phase but I'm afraid it is really OCD. I've been reading up on OCD in children and though it's very uncommon for a child of her age, it happens. I blame the Swine Flu! All the signs about coughing in your arm, washing hands, not spreading germs, getting flu shots....I think it really worried her and given her genetics, she's probably got a natural propensity for anxiety disorders (I have been known to obsess and have panic attacks in the past). So, my husband says to wait a while to see if it's a phase ("remember that time she started stammering and we discovered a kid in her class that she liked stammered?") but I can't stand to see her so worried and upset. I've called her pediatrician and will try to talk to her teacher today to find out if she's doing the same thing in school. Her babysitter didn't seem to notice it but she's fairly oblivious at times.