Well, I have made the decision. I will not allow myself to go on living in this prison I have built around myself. I am having to pay a high price for my key, surgery. I want so much though. I used to be a model in high school and college. I never thought of my self as really anything more than average, but camera and makeup can do things you would not believe. In most of the photos taken when I was modeling I could not even recognize myself.

I broke my leg in November. I don't even have a good story about it. I wasn't on my motorcycle or my horse. I simply stepped off my porch wrong. My land lord had placed some bricks around my porch on edge. They were not mortared in and I had no idea. I stepped down with my right leg and turned my ankle and sprained it. I then tried to catch myself on my left leg but I stepped down on my ankle instead of my foot and spun around shattering the bones in my leg. I had to crawl into the house, my leg flapping behind me. It was a nightmare. It is hard crawling along in the dirt when you are fat. My knees hurt, my hands and elbows hurt, and the feeling in my leg was indescribable. I still have nightmares about it. I vowed then I was going to have surgery. Only the first surgery I had was to try to reassemble all the broken bones in my leg. Unfortunately I am going to have to get a lawyer and sue my landlords insurance company for the medical bills.

I am waiting for my income tax to come in. I think I am going to go with the gastric sleeve. I have been reading medical studies, journals of medicine, clinical trials and studies involving both the band and the sleeve. Insurance is not an option for me. I am self pay so going to go to Tijuana. I have to go get a passport. I am also moving on the 15th of February so have a lot to do here very shortly. I am still using a cane to get around, so cannot do a lot of exercise and still need another surgery on my leg.

Sorry to hear your bad news. Hope you mend well, Sending up a little prayer for you. God is so good~all the time.

Strange how one little day can change our lives? But we will find that even in the bad things that happen to us, good things will come from it. The insurance should pay for your bills, it is only right. And compensate you too.

You are very pretty, and I like your bike too!