Today I felt so sick just looking at myself in the mirror. I have been wondering lately how did I get to this size and how would it be if I were to lose the weight. I have watched my mother and sister go through getting the band and it has seemed to work so wonderful for them. I guess I'm just tired of waiting and so ready to get my life back. I am ready to get back out with some of my old classmates and play ball or to go to the park and run around with my daughter without having to take mutiple 10 min breaks. I guess this year should be the year to look forward to many changes and hoping to re-gain the old sexy teddy bear I use to be.

This stress is making my blood pressure continue to rise and it seems that the meds are not workong. I think right now I'm just really lacking the support I need....... Hmmm well back to the same ol same o.........

Well you're in the right place.. we're here to support each other and it'll be here before you know it. Speak positively into the situation. "When I get my band in ," etc...

As for BP meds, would depend on what you're on but there's LOTS of BP med options, let your DR know what you're on isn't working.

Be encouraged, you're going to be exactly where you want to be. Instead of feeling bad about yourself, be proud that you're taking the steps to correct the situation. You've seen it, you've realized it and now you're correcting it.

Start making your future plans (that helped me during my waiting period) vacations, deals, ideas, etc... setting some goals for myself, etc...

You have the advantage of being able to see how your mother and sister do, so you already KNOW how well this will work for you, and being a man, you'll lose weight faster than they did. You'll be back to your previous status or better before you know it.

Besides sexy happens at any size, rock what ya workin' with! lol

Hope you're having a better day!

Ms. Jackson once again I say thank you for your response.For this New Year I'm trying to write down how I'm feeling or say how I am feeling instead of holding it in. I mean I'm working on myself and I do know I will get to where I need and want to be. I just say thank you for all your advice and please keep it coming........

About looking in the mirror...I absolutely feel that way. I'm SO sick of myself. But I'm also excited because I have a plan and I am determined to be a better me! You can do it too. We are all here to support each other. Good luck!

To Ms. Lose it Thank you for words of encouragement and I appreciate the support from everyone on here who has shown love. A New Me for 2010 is going to be my ultimate goal.