I walked 1 mile in 20 mins (3 mph average, but with some bursts of speed up to 5 mph!!) last night. Then added 6 more minutes...That's the good news.

Only one more week till surgery!

The bad news is since I faithfully gave up smoking (I'm doing GREAT with it now!) I've been eating at night. It's like I'm asleep, but not all the way - I get up, I eat - and not stuff I'm supposed to be eating!! Crap, like the leftover pizza last night (one piece of that last night) - or the chips (which I HATE having in the house anyway) left over from our BBQ, or a handful of chocolate chips - just the chips, no cookie...It's like an obsession. I do great all day - then at night it all goes out the window....

It's gotten worse these last few days and I feel horrible about it. WHAT DO I DO? I'm afraid its fucked up my (sorry about the language, but hey its my journal!) weight loss before surgery. I might be over reacting but I still feel bad.

Quit drinking, quit eating, quit smoking - all my vices are gone and I feel like I'm trying to hold on to one of those slippery water toys - the water worm? I try to hold on, but it slips out of my hand - *sigh* Can I do this? How do I REPLACE my vices with something good for me??

Hi

My surgery is Sept 8. I feel for you. I am on day 6 of 14- drinking 3 protein shakes a day. I too miss drinking and eating. With me it's a mind over matter thing. I just don't give myself any other options. This is what I signed up for and I am hell bent to do it. I call my Crystal light tea with lemon a cocktail. I know if I can do this so can you. Oh and good work with the walking.

keep working at it, i lost 26 pounds pre op and 6 on the first week, stick to what the doctor tells you, dont cheat.

Good luck