Today, I met my friend, Julie halfway between our houses (we live 40 miles apart), so that my daughter could go and hang out with her girls for a few days... this will also allow me not to have to worry about one less child this Wednesday. :Dancing_wub:

On the way back home, while I was waiting in the CVS drive thru lane, my son got really quiet... that is unusual for him. I looked over and he had a tear rolling down his cheek. I asked him what he was crying for. His reply kind of shocked me.:present:

We have talked about this surgery for months and months at my house. It's common knowledge. I've discussed the procedure with my kids. (At first, my youngest son thought that I would go into the hospital, have the surgery and come home a skinny woman!) :biggrin:If ONLY it were that easy!!!:bye:

Caleb said that he is worried about me dying while I am having the surgery.:frown:

I told him that I didn't think that would happen... BUT if something did happen to me, at least I would die TRYING to better myself and my family life.

I told Caleb that it was a guarantee that I would die if I didn't get the weight off. Done. It's gonna happen. BUT, this LAP-BAND®® is a tool for me to lose the weight I need to lose... and when that happens, I will be a better mom to him. I will be able to run and play with him and his brother and sister... I'll be able to play volleyball, and ride rollercoasters and walk with them. We can go somewhere and DO things!!!

He finally got the idea and dried his tears.

I think he's good now.

I, myself, am not worried about the surgery. I KNOW that it will be a success. I WANT this more than anything else I've ever wanted and I will make this THING WORK!!!

Alright, that's all for now....

Congrats! Your making the right choice and im glad hes starting to understand. Sounds like a smart young man. I wish you the best of luck. Keep us posted.