A few days after Christmas and a few days before my first fill. I am definitely awaiting this fill. Although I've gone through this process before, I am still a little nervous and excited. I'm excited about the restriction (oddly enough) and nervous that I won't feel it after the first fill.

This Christmas, I ate some of the wrong foods and serving sizes that were probably not what my surgeon had in mind. Fortunately and unfortunately, my surgery was a few weeks ago so I could eat regular foods with only minimal restriction from swelling. I did take advantage of that! :present: However, I will NOT beat myself up this time. It's not too late for me to get back on track and get in to the gym. NO EXCUSES! My doctor calls the band a "crutch." Call it what you may, I am calling it "my motivation," because it is the little push that I need to do what will make me healthier.

I remember when I initially lost the weight. I was so confident, and that confidence led to happines...not because of how I looked, but because of how I felt. I approached situations differently and was more positive. My weight was one less thing "on my plate." :Dancing_wub: The journey continues.

First stop on the journey--realization that this is really happening and that I have to do my part. I must exercise and eat healthy. Can't depend solely on the band, I have to rely on me!