I can't believe my last blog had so many views and comments. Thank you all for taking time out of your day to encourage me.

I had a fitness and nutrition appt today. The fitness appt was just 15 min and she gave me some strength training excercises to do but didn't talk to me at all about cardio. She did mention that I would need to build up some muscle to fill in the skin. I kinda felt gipped from the appt though. We didn't talk at all about how much and how often I am to do these excercises and it was the same excercises she gives everyone. It just felt impersonal. The nutrition appt was alot of info. It was an hour long. She was teaching me and this other guy at the same time. Thankfully I only have 2 days of clear liquids preop. I have seen some of you have 2 weeks. Wow. She said the low carb diet will shrink my liver just as well as a liquid diet so they don't require it. She gaves us list of good, bad and inbetween foods.

I am just surprised at myself for going through with this. I feel like I am letting go of who I used to be (an allstar athlete) and admitting I am not that person anymore. I have mommy gut and married butt. My body is scarred by the life I have lived. On the flipside though I can change things. I can be a Milf lol jk. I can be a mommy who lost the gut and a wife who lost the butt. Claim victory over my body again. Plus the psych class I am taking has shown Me I still think I am living in the glory days. I have to just admit This was a sad place to be. Now, I am taking my first step outta here. Before I know it my thirties will really be the new twenties. I learned from 2 different psychologist that just invisioning yourself achieving your goals puts you at a greater advantage of achieving them.

So, Here it is, Graduation day. I am walking across the stage in the auditorium, proud, NOT the least bit anxious, I have earned my diploma and am now officially a nurse. I have a ton of friends and family cheering me on because not only did I shed the weight I have shed the fear of talking to new people. I stand up now to give a validictorian speech. (By then I hope I will have learned to spell it correctly). For the first time I will address the crowd without crying out of fear. I am proud of who I have become, outgoing, energetic, joyful, fullfilled, genuine (no more holding back tears and faking a smile). This will be the new me.

Those of you who wanna take this step with me leave a comment about who you will be in two or three years. I have used this technique to acommplish many things. I used to be so ill I couldn't even drive. Now I drive, have a family and attend school. Despite still being ill.

Here's to a life well spent.

Thanks for posting such an upbeat blog. Good for you.

In 2 - 3 years I hope to be retired and doing all the fun things in life that I have not done yet. I will be a lot more outgoing and enjoying each day a little thinner than the last one.

In 2-3 years ,,I will have started my new life. I am riding on the roller coasters. I will be the one on the beach in that skimpy swimsuit. I will be waiting there for all my band family. So we can go swimming and not care what people have to say.

Mom gut and married butt. Hee!

In 2-3 years I won't even recognize myself!!